The Falling Star

I think of the day...

when after two engagements

would be the third one...

A star wouldbe born then

a street urchin would

look up into the night sky and

dream of becoming like him.

How would she feel

seeing “collages of his achievements”!

She would turn on the television

to give him a standing ovation

but alas! With “tears in her heart”!

What would he feel then?

Where would he head to?

                                  -----from the eyes of a lover

Healer

I believe Time,Love,Music & Meditation have the greatest healing power. It is truly said Time is the greatest healer.

Apart from meditation I have felt the healing power of all. But there is a difference in their aftereffects.

While love drives away hatred from the heart and heals and time from the mind;music kills hatred in both and meditation drives it altogether from the soul and heals!!!

P.S. Right now I am having PEPSI... Cheers friends!!! :)

Kuch Yaadein...bas yaadein reh jaanti hain!!!

Woh Pal Jo meethein pal....!!!

Recently IIT-JEE 2010 results were declared which reminded me of my days in Kota.

One month preparation time-bicycle-Ravi and me-evening-outside in the balcony-staring people passing by-among them twin lasses-beautiful-ignited our senses :) - everyday staring-suddenly ends-saw the twins-staring at the gate-everyday-where we used to stand-everyday-missing us- their face still lingers- miss her :) and those days dearly!!!! :) :( :) :( :)

...????

kya karein kya na karein

yeh kaisi mushkil haaye!!!!

nothing to do here...

started drawing again...

reading novels-just completed The Kite Runner

next is Seldon...

some data work!!!

what to do???

Tum Bin... :(

Tum Bin jaawun kahan

k duniya me aake

kuch na phir chaha kabhi

tumko chahke...

In retrospect...

Those 5 mins of ma Life,those 5 mins of glory!!!
I lay on my cot n gently closed my eyes as she had said.Suddenly something seemed to be raotating n I fell in some dark place.Ahh!!!! It was she;in front of me.What else could I....?
Suddenly something pricked my heart-ahh,it was the Cupid's arrow.I took her in my arms;the music started in my heart-she could feel it too.We started dancing to our heart's tune-completely insync with it; Kahin toh hogi woh,duniya jahaan tu mere saath hai;jahan main jahan tun aur jahan bas tere mere jajbaat hain... I kissed her -neck,under the ears gently moving up to her lips-and we were completely lost in this world.We hugged each other tighlty n then gently.I could feel her body,her breast n then her heartbeat.My heart started pounding insync with her as if,if they ever stopped it would be together.
Alas!But it all ended with the knock of the door!!! I had some mixed emotions-happy that I was in her arms sad that the synchronization was lost. :) :( 

  

All Alone!!! :(

Mera Jeevan Kora-kagaz

Kora hi reh gaya…!!!

Those were cho chweet days,

I remember those…

Still vivid in ma mind

They remember me

They are ma best friends

We have lived some special moments

The dance while bathing…

They feel as I feel

Distances separated our body

But not our togetherness

They were very special to me

And still are…

But all of us need someone more special

That special I also needed!!!

All are busy with their lives, I too am

But I find time for them.

It hurts when someone special to you

Doesn’t care…takes you for granted.

But they have never done that to me

Keeping ma finger crossed that no one ever does…

Mixed emotions of…

:) :( :) :( :) :(…

P.S. While writing this I had a power cut n that reminded me of something that I was writing after a long time and that something I had never written before for anyone….hope that….!!!!(sigh)

Just two days…ends!!!

Filling stuffs in the red

She filled stuffs in ma head

Sharp at midnight she cooked her head

To cool me down the next day

All alone in the crowd of 800.

With 3 cases on me

I stood crooked in the train

Paid bucks to ease her down

All she did me was kick me.

Staring and grinning at the opposite end

Only to hear no water at the other end

No food no snacks no pudding

With this the journey came to an end.

But wait who said it was the end

For no one has ever seen it…

I tried and tried but in vain

For who forgets the grief

For who remembers the happiness

Is what I have to say!!!

Bas Yaadein...

teri yaadein mulakatein

woh raatein aur baatein

teri saansein woh baahein

ab mujhko yaad aayein

tere bina mera jiya sataye kyun piya

yaadon ne teri mujhpe yeh jaado kiya re...

Some songs just strike deep,

somewhere deep down inside ur heart

it makes u feel love n emotions

makes u cry

especially if u have memories associated with it!!!

and this song along with "zindagi do pal ki" has etched a mark,

a mark of I don't know what...

i have preserved n associated some memories of ma life with it!!!

Love...???

Someone tweeted "wat is love...??"

Here is a story...

A boy named Hari gave his heart to a gal but was married to another gal named Niharika.
Niharika his wife came to know about his love n asked him whom did he love more.The boy said he didn't know.
Once they were in a ship which was on its way to an island...co-incidentally his love was also there.
Destiny..

.

the ship got caught in a storm n was wrecked.Hari first tried to save Niharika-hs wife!!!After he rescued her to the island he went save his love.But Alas!both drowned!!

The sea returned the "carcass" to Niharika!!!

So who did the boy love more...I ask u!!!
P.S. aa likkh de hum

       dono milke apni yeh prem kahani

       meri chahat ko tum rakh lena

       jaise koi nisani....

       hum rahein ya na rahein yaad aayenge yeh pal....

love u everyday...miss u every moment!!! :)

zindagi do pal ki...
intezaar kab tak hum karenge bhala
tumhe pyaar kab tak na karenge bhala.

I miss all those sweet talks,
the sweet healing voice
walking down the staircase after my lecs
i remember those days
the afternoon antrakshri session
the online kisses
the babyeeeee
n still talking for half n hour
ur anger, u tears
the ruthna n manana.

I won't let those fade in the Oblivion
I can't promise a Utopia
what I can promise is that whenever tears roll down ur eyes
u will always find me lending ma shoulders...
take care of urself
miss u a lot!!!! :(

Fact!!! :(

I took her to be my love,
She took me as her "pain-killer"!!! :(:(:(

BFF ...

whom u miss even when u r having sex ;) :D
whom u scold on ur mistake,
with whom u plan all the mischiefs,
with whom u share all ur feelings (maybe even ur gf :P)
who abuses u all the time-bloody idiot,rascal,motherfucker n all sorts of....blah blah blah!!!
with whom u pick random gals/boyz while shopping
whom u wuld like to kick in the ass in the happiest moment of ur life
whose shoulder u wuld like to have while crying
who tells u that ur gf has left the xamination centre n so its time for u to leave too :)
who relies on u n on whom u rely to get thru the xam
who points out ur silliest mistake
who cries when u cry
...
n so try to find such a friend,
never leave him/her even if he wants so
for when he says that he too feels pain
n wants u to come even closer!!!

Dedicated to all ma frnds
especially those who are worth sth in ma life!!!!

Real Loss....

texting-had a fight-she-not willing to tok or text-i strike back-i realize-but....

The Last Night

Was it the last night???Yeah it was the last night when all this happened.It had never happened to me before-never ever in ma life.My head was numb-the best word that can describe my state...or is it that i was numb- i really don't know.I really felt like crying-lonely sitting in the room as if for ages in shackles.When was I going to be free like others???when??
All above that an idiot whom i would ....i don't know what i would do to him... plays with me...playing since when...i don't know...r u a HULK???no man u r a dodo challenging me!!!ahh!!! come on...
that would be a different story though...so let me return to ma state of mind...
all negative thoughts haunted me...continued to do so in ma dreams....still perpetually lingering around...well well I have kicked it out;let it roam hither n tither....for Heaven's sake leave me alone...anyways u r not goinna get a chance again...now its a rare case when I lose my temper...however for some reason or the other....others r still inside me.... pains when i have to struggle to stop my tears... they r precious for some n useless for others!!!
need someone....really...i keep on speculating something;wait for someone n finally what am I handed each day... a sigh of relief that someone was there with me.
Thinking about the mid-sem retest mad me more mad.All I could imagine was a weak heart standing in the drawing room of MB;me watching others watching me-I would grin.
But I wanted to imagine something else-what I still don't know.I have accepted it...that I can't put my mind to its best...that's mental retardation which may help me make it to the next level.I had always imagined some next level waiting for me.Alas! I have never reached there.
I was caught in a whirlpool in the cavern of my imagination and I finally i had to give in.Tears started rolling down and so I finally I slept forgetting the retest I had today.I left all to God!!!P.S. just a crap to start with...P.P.S. (April 2,2010)